I remember being in treatment when one day my counselor explained what we were about to do that day. We were instructed to walk up to a dry erase board and write down names of people we had lost to addiction related deaths. It was a very emotional day and at the end my counselor…Read more Death In Recovery
I was a 26 year old junkie, a street kid whose only profession was “squatter”. I had been using for more than half of my life and going hard for the past 10 years. I came to treatment with all my belongings: two pairs of identical brown pants, a handful of black tee shirts…Read more “Did He Just Say God?”
If you’re a member of either of these 12 step groups, you’ve most likely heard a few jabs taken at the other fellowship. The jabs could be all in good fun or they could have come across in a mean tone where the person saying it truly believed that one group is inferior to the…Read more AA vs NA – What’s The Beef?
As a recovering addict, I'm no stranger to feelings like guilt, shame, remorse, embarrassment (I could go on...). In the past four years, 12-step programs have been a revolving door of sorts for me- things get bad enough that I have no choice but to put down the dope and "try" again, so I do-…Read more Junkie Pride Kept Me High
Drugs had always been a hobby, a pastime, and for good reason…I was really good at them (for awhile). So it came with no surprise that a large part of my identity was based off drugs in one form or another. I never realized how little I knew about myself until I got clean. Counselors…Read more I’m An Addict, Now What?
This is my first entry and I feel a little nervous writing for all of you. I still have a mind that tells me if I'm not the best I'm the worst - so why bother. That is basically the mentality I've carried throughout my life on this earth. Manifestations of self hate and low…Read more Nick’s First Blog